Physical Thinking

There are more ways to be spoiled then through money. I've never been broken. I've never had to survive after something ended without my planning it. I've always had something to fall back on. The only thing I've ever done all by myself was my Vet Tech school. Interestingly enough I put my whole heart into it.

I need that again. I need to cut the apron strings (Sorry Mike you now have an apron) and toughen up. I don't know right now if I could rely on myself to get through things. I need to explore myself. Scary as that sounds, I'm completely comfortable with it. The idea came up that maybe I need to live by myself for a little while. I've always been terrified of that. Completely terrified. But right now.. that actually sounds ok. I'm not sure why, but I feel like I need something like that. If I can afford it, maybe I should once the lease is up.

A lot of thought needs to go into a decision like this, but I feel like if it's possible, I should. I need to test my own strength and find out my capabilities.

I need to be broken.